The boys and girls watch each other eat when they really just wanna watch each other sleep...

Completely. Bored. Out. Of. My. Noggin. (Lmao I almost typed "nigg..." Oops...)

Anyways yes. The weather is lame and therefore my family is lame and doesn't want to do anything this weekend. I have like no single friends that are actually around to hang out with me (I've come to the conclusion that all my non-single friends are too damn busy with their beloved to spend one second considering the fact that they have friends they used to hang out with...) My boyfriend's work schedule is lame. Its SO frustrating. I'm stuck babysitting my brother pretty much ALL damn week and when I DON'T have to babysit him, i.e. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, he works all those nights. FML. This sucks majorly. And then when we scrape together some time during the week, the stupid kid has to tag along...really annoying but we deal with it. Can't wait for the school year. I actually LIKE being busy. I agree with what Oleg said on MSN earlier, its way better to be too busy than not busy at all. I need a LIFE. I need a job. I need a car. I need my own place. I need hard liquor...asap. Lmao. But in all seriousness, school keeps me busy, I have an excuse to be out of this stupid town and my house for the whole day, and best of all I get to see Matt all I want. We even have a class together. *Skips happily* Yay.

For now, I have to figure out how to NOT kill myself today and tomorrow due to lack of things to do.

At least there's summer rush @ wonderland coming up, and I think I'm going to wonderland on tuesday as well with my brother. Whatever, not really my idea of a good time but it beats sitting at home.

Speaking of summer rush, my so called best friend turned into a major bitch today. She assured me that me and Matt and her and her boyfriend were going together and I mentioned the fact that we would pay for parking and all if they gave us a ride. She seemed fine with it. Then today, she casually mentions that she wants to bring her cousin along since she hasn't seen him in a long time. So I ask...Well are we still getting a ride with you? And she says that even though she explained to her bf that we would pitch in for gas/parking, it was "his car, his rules" and he didn't want to have to "rush back home" in case I needed to be home early.

Ok....I pretty much blew up...but Matt told me to be cool about it and that the only thing that could really be said is that she's very inconsiderate. You can't just tell your friend that you're going to be giving her a ride and then make plans to give someone ELSE a ride (family or not) when you already agreed to give the first friend a ride. And then say "sorry, no more room". Well, excuse me for being rude, but what are we supposed to do now? Since she loves to lecture to me about how she works for her money and I don't, she of all people should understand that people don't exactly have 20 bucks to blow on public transportation just because you suddenly decide to blow them off and not give them a ride. Whatever, its not big deal. What REALLY got me was the fact that she said "Well the last time YOU TWO went to wonderland, Matt drove his car illegally [i.e. without insurance...long story] so why is it a problem now?" Wow. Ignorant bitch. First of all, when we did drive it was perfectly legal, actually it was the LAST legal day so to speak, and second of all how why would her boyfriend (who barely knows me by the way) automatically assume that he would have to "rush home" to drop me off? Yeah my parents are strict, but like what kind of bullshit excuse is that? Excuse me if I live with my parents who give me a curfew that I have to abide by, she should realize what thats like given that when she lived with her mom it was exactly the same. But OH WAIT. I forgoooot. She thinks she's ABOVE all that now because she lives on her own! Well look where thats gotten you! You have your boyfriend move in with you after only dating him for two months....which in my opinion was a terrible idea and is basically the reason why your relationship was/is so unstable...then you have your "best friend" (not me) move in and deal with her unbelievable antics (i.e. making noise cooking and blasting tv at 4 am, bringing her boyfriend over to spend the night and having loud sex with him, not being grateful that her friend is giving her a place to stay, etc). Yeah you live on your own, but thats not the greatest thing either from what I'm gathering. Then she actually has the nerve to be all "Well SORRY if I want to invite my cousin who I never see, you dont get what its like not to see your family a long time".







Yeah.





I made the desicion to stop seeing my own father, and his whole side of the family starts ignoring me and doesn't want to see or talk to me. I REAAAAALLY don't understand family issues. Nope. Not at all.


Whatever. She can go with her cousin. I dont really care. I feel like all of a sudden, all we even have in common anymore is the fact that we're die hard Paramore fans. Oh and by the way? She wouldnt even be into Paramore if I didnt send her the songs and tell her to listen to them.

Matt and I will have a wonderful time on our own, and I'll even get to meet his parents properly :)