I seriously need to get a life.

The Internet has become a dangerous, dangerous thing for me. Now that I can't stalk people on Facebook anymore (my boyfriend was so kind as to change my password for me so I can actually focus on studying for exams) I've turned to Twitter - although, it's quite boring and there's not much to do there - and stalking people's blogs.

I seriously think I have a problem. Instead of getting to know certain people personally, I constantly read what they post in their blogs/LiveJournal accounts/MySpace, etc. And if there's some kind of information missing there, I refuse to stop lurking until I can make some kind of guess about what it is. Like, people obviously don't name people when they rant on about how pissed off they are in their blogs so I sit there and make guesses as to who they're talking about and what the situation is. There's certain people that I knew in high school or from somewhere, but I know the "internet version" of them and not the real them. I think I'd be weirded out if I actually had to sit down and hang out or talk to these people because I'm so used to "getting to know them" by what they write on the Internet.

I kind of reasoned with myself and came up with an explanation for WHY I do this...See, I watch TV shows like Gossip Girl, 90210, Melrose Place and such. Where you get sucked into watching because of all the drama that happens. Thing is, being educated in cultural/media studies, I consciously know how full of crap these shows are and how they construct storylines and characters purely for the purpose of gaining more viewership and higher ratings. That's it. They're extremely fake and unrealistic, the girls are anorexically skinny, wear way too much fabulous clothes, expensive makeup, and fake eyelashes. Oh not to mention that most actors play characters that are 10-15 years younger than they actually are. I'm aware of all this. Maybe that's why I feel the need to fulfill this guilty pleasure through REALITY...people that actually exist and have real problems. That's why I always read people's blogs and want to find out more about the stuff they deal with. Some people make it so easy too, you know? They post EVERYTHING about their lives everywhere. Its so obvious the kind of attention I give them (that they don't necessarily know about) is exactly what they want. And they know it.

Sigh. I really need to get a life.

Agenda for today:
- Study a chapter of Marketing, and review all previous notes
- Study a chapter of OB
- Listen to a History lecture and make note of terms mentioned
- Go to bed early!!! No talking on the phone till 3am (Sorry, Matt)