I put my faith in you, so much faith and then you just threw it away;;

Lmao. So I just realized that my relationship (uhm, *cough*, "relationship") with Andy last summer lasted all of two and a half weeks. I just went through my old blog and my phone and discovered that he asked me out on August 9th and broke up with me August 27th. Huh. I always imagined it to have been a month, but I guess not. Maybe its even shorter because technically I was out of the country for one of the weeks we dated. And he's still dating that skank to this day. Can you believe that?

Well...okay. She's not a skank. I told myself I'd never resort to calling people names without reason like that. Or maybe I should have a reason to call her a skank...after all she pretty much fooled around with my boyfriend behind my back and started dating him right after he dumped me AND lied about it. You don't do that. Not to your best friend. I have every right to be bitter about it.

Why the hell am I bringing this shit up yet AGAIN? I don't know. I had a dream about them last night. It was awkward, they were driving me somewhere for some reason and he kept giving me like the dirtiest looks and saying mean things. I don't remember much but I guess thats good. God, what if Chris DOES plan something with the old gang and they're both there? Like, together? They've been dating since then and I still have never seen them together as a couple. That would be really, really weird. Especially because she's the type to come on up to me and start chatting me up like we're best girlfriends again. He would probably just ignore me. Or who the hell knows. Why do I care again? Seeing the first ex there would be interesting though. He'd probably treat me as if I don't exist and I'm perfectly happy with that. I've done everything in my power to make things right and he pretty much told me where to shove it. Ah well, guess I should have seen that one coming.

Now my best friend is starting to worry me. And piss me off in a major way. She's gotten back together with her ex AGAIN - they've broken up and gotten back together about 4 or 5 times now - and avoided to tell me about it. And when I asked her why, WHY she would put herself in that position again after swearing to me she would never waste her attention on such an "asshole" ever again, she's all "what's in the past is done, there's no reason not to try again, why can't you just be happy for me and forget all the bullshit?" Uhm. I see plenty of reason not to try again. It didn't work the first 4 times around, why would it work now? I'm not about to basically be shafted to the side AGAIN while she's all happy with him, and then in like two weeks or less they'll get into another stupid argument, she'll complain about how she's so stressed and how she takes shit she doesn't need in life (which I agree with) and break up with him again. And then it'll be all, "OMG Justine, I've missed my PBFFL lets hang out again!" I just doooon't want it to turn into that again. I really don't. But I don't know how to tell her she's making a mistake. And I can't believe she wouldn't tell me. That in and of itself indicates there's something wrong with this and she knows it. If she was truly happy with her decision she would tell me straight up (after all, I'm going to find out eventually of course) and not be worried about what I would say. Right?

Woooooow. Okay that was a mouthful.
Got lots of sleep today, really needed it after having stayed up until 3 am registering for Commerce II. Stupid server took forever to let me on and I couldn't find any electives I wanted.

Okay so is it even humanly possible for me to be in a relationship for longer than a few weeks or months? I guess we'll find out. I'm just waiting a bit to see if my boyfriend finds something about me he really doesn't like and runs. I don't think it'll happen, I've pretty much told him about every skeleton in my closet and he's seen the bitchy side of me who likes to rant on and on about God knows what whenever I get mad. If he doesn't mind that, then great :)

I really needed this. I've decided this won't strictly be a photo blog because uploading photos onto here is a pain in the ass. A girl just needs to vent to a computer screen sometimes.