Wow.
So pretty much I'm questioning why I'm the biggest fucking FAILURE at life.
Today's driving lesson was a disaster.
Yeah, everything they teach you in those "in-class" sessions you're required to take in order to be certified by the MTO? Complete BULLSHIT.
Because once you're out there behind the wheel you don't fucking remember ANY OF IT.
At least I don't.
Fuck. I'm so inexperienced at this and whats worse, I look like a huge fucking dumbass in front of my instructor and everyone else. Because my parents are too scared for their precious little (or should I say huge) baby car thats worth like a gazillion dollars to even give me a chance and try to teach me something. Like holy fuck, I'm never going to fucking LEARN anything if you don't TEACH ME! and then they go off yelling at me because I'm "irresponsible" and "stupid at life" and don't know how to fucking do anything in the real world and how I'd never survive out there.
GUESS. WHY.
Like I made the biggest dumbfuck mistakes today I'm surprised I'm even sitting here ALIVE. Like I stop at a stop sign, not realizing that its NOT an all-way stop and therefore expected the other dude to stop as well and let me turn first since I got there first. But he DIDN'T have a stop sign so obviously he kept going. Almost fucking had a collision. Thank God for the emergency instructor's brakes.
And just stupid shit like that. I can't parallel park to save my own life.
Fuck this.
Maybe I'm just out of it because I overslept and woke up literally 7 minutes before my lesson. But that's no excuse either! Like whats gonna happen when I'm 35 or something and have to drive my kids to school in the morning? Like "No, sorry guys, I'm too out of it to be safe behind a damn wheel today."
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!
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hey lovely, first of all you're not a failure. Everyone has made that mistake before even if now they're the greatest driver in the world. You'll get it too, promise.. the more you practice the more it'll become automatic, i'm not even at that stage yet. Just have patience, it'll all come in good time... driving is not something you're born to do, it's an acquired still. Just don't get frustrated cuz you can do it! We can do it together bean!
ReplyDeleteLove, Cara <3